Periods

no not the end of a sentence. The annoying thing that all girls get once a month…….I’ve decided to get a little personal with you today and share how I personally deal with the hell that is my period.

Back story: back when I first got my period, I had a drinking problem. So every 28 days or so I would vomit, faint, turn purple, have cramps from hell and have to miss school. I was also lactose intolerant but didn’t know it at the time. So that added some more fun to my symptoms. Here we are 14 years later and my period is much lighter and easier to deal with. HOWEVER I still have some things I do to ease the pain if any.

I take Ibuprofen, drink herbal tea, take hot showers and use a heating pad. I also try and get as much rest as I can. I also don’t eat spicy foods, fried foods or anything that could possibly iritate my stomach. I’m very careful. Now this doesn’t mean I don’t have cravings! But I know better.

I also try and get exercise and lots of rest!

Hope this helps!

Special Treat!

I’ve decided to share something special with you today. I’ve decided to share that my 10th book will be coming out soon! I’m not done with it yet, but I want you to know that I’m working on it! In the meantime please enjoy the other 9 I’ve written. I’m so proud of them! they are all so personal to me in different ways. I hope you enjoy!

Rainy Day

Rainy Days are the best. Everything’s quiet and peaceful. The world feels softer and delicate. It feels better than a sunny day. But I do love sunny days don’t get me wrong! It’s just sometimes we need rain. Balance is the key to life. We can’t have sunshine without some rain! And vice versa. See people tend to forget that. Life is a journey and with that journey comes balance. Everything has a reaction, equal and opposite. It’s all part of life. For every person that lives, someone must die. For everything thing good that happens something bad must happen. It’s all part of life. We may not like it. But we wouldn’t appreciate the good as much if that’s all we got!

Update time!

Well I’ve been sick with a cold the last few days….that’s been annoying. But it’s also interesting because I usually NEVER get sick anymore. I was thinking about this yesterday while walking a dog, I was remembering all the times Id gotten sick as a teen, course I was drinking and taking horrible care of myself. But I would get sick at least twice a year. And it was HELL. This time it’s been wayyyyyy better. Not saying it’s been pleasant by any means. but it’s been better. It just goes to show you how good care can go a long way.

I was also thinking about something else not related to health. I was thinking about all the s*it I’ve done in my life and how I probably HAD to do all the things I did. What if I needed to drink? What if I had to get sober on my own? What if I had to go through all the things that I did in order to get here? What if everything was a lesson? What if it still is? What if things had gone differently? Where would I have ended up? These are questions I ask myself daily. I’m learning to find peace in that. I’m learning to find peace in not having all the answers. I don’t want them. More importantly I don’t need them. I don’t think I ever will.

Get to know me!

I guess y’all would want to know who you’re reading about huh? Well I’m 29, I’m a Capricorn sun/Taurus Moon. I love to read, sleep and crochet. I have my own business and I’m going back to school online in May. I’m VERY introverted and it takes me awhile to warm up to people. I’m kind of like a dog lol.

I have a dog and a cat (Both of whom run my life) I’m lactose intolerant and that’s all I Feel comfortable sharing at this moment. If you’d like to read my 9 books I’ve written and published I’ll leave my linktree below for you! I hope you check it out! linktr.ee/gilmorepretty

Recipe Time!

This maybe random but occasionally I’ll share a recipe with you guys! I’ve made this so many times and it’s a staple in the summer when it’s 100 degrees outside. So I thought perhaps it was blog worthy! it’s a smoothie bowl! Now you can add or omit whatever you want to this is just what I use!

1 frozen cut and peeled banana. you can use more or less if you’d like but I typically use one as the “base” I’m basically making ice cream here.

1 cup of frozen fruit. I usually use blueberries or strawberries or whatever I found at the store. Sometimes I add spinach for extra health. but you don’t need to. I also sometimes add vegan yogurt to make it creamier but again you don’t need to.

1 cup of almond milk.

Blend until smooth. And pour in a bowl. Now you can top it with chocolate chips, granola, fresh fruit whatever makes you smile!

Enjoy!

I had a panic attack last night

That was definitely weird as I haven’t had one in SO long. But alas, I had one. I got through it though. And I don’t need sympathy. I’m simply trying to add to a conversation that I think we don’t have enough!

School stuff is going fine, did financial shit yesterday. That was fun. I’m so excited to go back to school online. THat’s what I should’ve done the first time honestly. But maybe I had to go away? Maybe I had to move away from home. Maybe I had to learn some hard lessons. Maybe I had to grow up a bit. Maybe my life was supposed to happen that way. Maybe it’s all for the better. You really never know. Life has a funny way of teaching you things. And throwing you a curveball lol.

I keep thinking maybe I had to go away to school so that I could learn. Maybe it all taught me the greatest lesson I needed to learn. Was how strong I actually am and how ridiculous my life was and how much I needed to love myself. How much I should never have settled for shitty friends or shitty people. I know better now. I don’t let anyone in now. I’m over it.

Healing is difficult

I need to take a second and acknowledge something. Healing is difficult. I know it’s been 3 years since I’ve been single. And I’ve done A LOT of work on myself in those 3 years. I’ve become a much calmer person and a much more present person. BUT that doesn’t mean I don’t have a lot of work to continue doing. I have to still let go of the belief that men are terrible. I also have to let go of the fact that I’m a horrible person and people hate me. Nobody hates me. I need to realize that. I”m not a villain.

Yes I’ve done terrible things! We all have. But that doesn’t make me a bad person. We’ve all fucked up over time. It’s not the end of the world. I still have a long way to go and that’s okay! I’m okay. Nobodies mad at me.

College Again!

I don’t know if I told y’all this but yesterday I got accepted to a local college here in South Carolina! I get to take classes online starting in May. I’m so excited! I just finished taking placement tests and I’ll see how those end up. I know I did well on English and Reading but math……ew. Anyways! I’m so glad for a number of reasons. 1. I’ll be doing the thing my Ex told me I wasn’t smart enough to do. I’ll be doing the thing that he told me I would never do. 2. I’ll be getting the degree I never got and deserve. 3. And I’ll be able to maybe go farther in life! I think this is great. I encourage anyone who’s been in an abusive relationship to go back to school and get the degree that you deserve! I encourage you not to do it for anyone but you! You’re the most important person in your life. I’ll be so glad when you get in.

Turns out I am smart enough to get in to college! I think I always knew that I was just afraid to admit it to myself. But now that I have, I’m ecstatic. I can’t wait to embark on this crazy journey. I know it will be hard work. But I can do it! I know I can.

Bigger Then The Whole Sky

This song is on the 3am edition of Midnights and lemme tell you it guts me to my core! The meaning is ambiguous. But most people have assumed it’s about a miscarriage. I’ve never had a miscarriage and I’m so glad. But my heart shatters for those that have. I cannot imagine the pain, anguish and sadness. I cannot fathom how much that hurts and my heart shatters for those who’ve had a miscarriage everyday. I hope you can find peace and know that your child is okay and at peace.