Am I Dating Again?

This is a question I get a lot! And the simple answer is no. I’m not. And I don’t mean to sound rude when I say that, it’s just honestly not something I feel like I need to do right now. I need to heal right now and figure out who I am. I’m letting go of a lot of heavy things. I’m okay, but I need to lighten my mental load a bit.

I’m spending more time in nature than I think I ever have. I’m listening to music a lot more and finding myself. This doesn’t mean I don’t have nights were it hurts to fall asleep alone and it doesn’t mean I don’t wish someone would check on me sometimes or text me just for the hell of it. But that’s not in the universes plan for me right now. I guess I need to spend this time alone and really get to know myself first. Which is fine! I’m totally okay with that. But it does hurt sometimes and I need to acknowledge that. Healing isn’t linear. Healing is painful sometimes. It can really hurt. But you have to do it. Everything will be okay!

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